Friendships

During this season of loss, friendships have really become a beacon of hope, sharing, guidance.  I have reached to a very few group of friends including my sisters.  I have realized some friendships I thought would be sound and steady for me, have not.  Other friendships have deepened.   I know I am a "few very close girlfriend person" - guess it's "

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.  I have tons of friends and acquaintances but deep and true relationships are limited.  I have come to realize I limit those friendships for a handful of practical reasons -

I can't keep saying the same feelings, emotions and stories over and over.

I do not need many opinions - just one opinion from a solid person.

Not every friendship deserves to be a

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I am definitely in a season of reaching for

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to seek guidance of my feelings and actions so that I pass through this season and not get life stuck.  One of my 

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who always states "Hurting people, hurt others.'  I consciously know I am hurting so I do not want to hurt others in the wake of my emotions.  I love that these

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can guide my lost ship to calmer waters.  I am blessed and grateful.

I am also saddened that friendships that I thought were solid - failed.  That breaks a piece of my soul but I come to realize that Proverbs 18:24 "

A man who has friends must himself be friendly, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother

."  In other words, friends come and go but true friends stick like family.  The loss of my mother and her daily friendship created a dark hole that is being filled by those incredible friends.   I too must be that kind of friend for them. My peaceful prayer for my

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friendships in 2017.